The “why didn’t I…” days

As I mentioned in my previous post, my cupkeiki spent last weekend down and out. Monday came with no change. Yesterday morning started off the same, and I decided it was time to call the doctor. We got an appointment right away; although I wasn’t feeling that our situation was emergent, the nurse thought it would be best to just bring her in and not wait. Good thing I guess, because it turned out my cupkeiki needed more meds than I anticipated. She spent all day sleeping, not wanting to eat, drink or be my lil kolohe (rascal), as I like to call her. That’s when the “why didn’t I…” began. Why didn’t I just call the doctor sooner, why didn’t I decide that this wasn’t some simple bug that would work itself out…the list went on and on in my head all day. I called my mom late in the afternoon, who reassured my that all mothers feel this way when their kids are sick, at least “the one’s who care” do. It eased my mind, a little. Then I went on to worrying about the rest of the week…what if the meds don’t work? What if she just gets worse? What if something new presents itself?….Time to just put trust in the will of a person’s body/immune system and a doctors medical advice.

We’ve got a follow up Friday afternoon, until then I’m hoping that the meds will work their magic and the doctor will give us a thumbs up, otherwise there was talk of possible hospitalization, which scares me.  As I type my cupkeiki is rolling out of bed with her messy hair, sleepy eyes and toddling over to me and my only thought is, how lucky I am to have such a wonderful little girl in my life.

Hopefully, today is better than yesterday.

A Great Weekend

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The view from where we stayed…so amazing!!

 

I had a pretty great weekend, all except for a very sick cupkeiki. She spent most of her time sleeping, coughing and throwing up. Other than that little hiccup, we spent time with my in-laws in Silverthorne, CO riding up at Copper Mountain.

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A few snowy shots from inside, where it was warm.

It snowed pretty much all of Saturday, which was great for all of us that went riding! I’m still getting the hang of snowboarding, and this weekend I spent more time upright than on my bum.

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My brother and sister in-law and niece. They were so patient and fun to ride with! I’m lucky and thankful to have them in my life.

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My cupkeiki, feeling terrible, but still cute as ever.

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The view was incredible from the top of the mountain! 

Positivity

“We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.” Buddha

I think it’s silly to admit to the world, but I “unfriended” a person today because I had finally had enough of their caustic posts. I don’t need to go into their post details, but I feel like it’s something I want to write about. Why? Because this person is a mother, and every time I read her posts I honestly thought to myself, “how can someone write stuff like this and not think about how this affects their relationship with their child?” We are role models to our children. I admit that sometimes I want to post rants about things that frustrate me, but I stop and ask myself, “is it really the best thing to do?” The answer is always no, and here’s why: it reflects on me as a person, and it also affects my personality, behavior, my mood and my reactions to everything around me. That goes into the mother part. I believe that if you say it, write it, or even think it, you will have a reaction, physically or mentally, to it. What does that mean for your child?  Think about it! I’m certainly not saying this person is a bad mother, and I’m not saying that I’m the worlds best mother; what I am saying is that thinking, writing, saying or believing something affects the way we interact with other people, including our children and I realized after reading her post today that every time I read a post I became slightly aggressive feeling and didn’t like it. I don’t have time as a mother, a teacher, a person who has influence over another person’s life, to be negative like that. I’ve got to focus on the positive things; even if it’s about how frustrating it is that my keiki won’t eat greens and how I can change that. It may be a negative thought, but there is a positive process occurring, where I want to make the right change, want to set the right example, want to nurture her positively. Is this a frustrating rant? Yes, but it’s worth writing, it’s worth re-reading and worth realizing that I, as a person and parent, want to be positive and to do so I’ve got to think and act positively. Maybe more importantly; if I’m going to raise a confident, independent, and positive child, I have to be the one to set that example.

Here are some thoughts on positivity that have influenced me today:

“It takes but one positive thought when given a chance to survive and thrive to overpower an entire army of negative thoughts.” Robert H. Schuller

“Once you start replacing negative thoughts with positive ones, you’ll start having positive results.” Willie Nelson

“People deal too much with the negative, with what is wrong. Why not try and see positive things, to just touch those things and make them bloom?” Nhat Hanh

“I believe in karma, and I believe if you put out positive vibes to everybody, that’s all you’re going to get back.” Kesha

 

Weelicious!

Perhaps I’m slow  to discover this, but I’m so excited to have come across the site, Weelicious!! I’m sure I sound like every other parent who says, “I’ve got a picky eater” but maybe picky isn’t the right word. I’ve got a keiki who is slow to figuring out just how to swallow foods. It’s been an intense learning process, but I’ve had lots of help and support which I’m so thankful for! Now that my cupkeiki has started to move past the chipmunk phase (hold it in the cheeks until she either swallows or spits it all out) I’m excited to move past our routine foods and start making some new foods that I think she will really enjoy.

Check out the Weelicious website for baby, toddler, and family food inspiration! http://weelicious.com/